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why the hell can't i find old school reggae lyrics??? [Jul. 16th, 2004|01:29 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Mood |illiterate]
[Current Music |mom's island party mix.. boomshakalaka!]

"...keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if . . . there weren't any other people living in the world."

Growing up is so trivial(bwaha). Make-up, clothing, music, and my fuckin' orange hair. Why is self-identification vital to teenagers?
The whole hardcore unholy darkness vampire punk rock thing's made me so theatrical, melodramatic. This I don't like. Evil bastards that don't know or like the music I like. It just won't stop!

I'm starting to get those old lady smile eye crinkles really bad. I need a vat of stem cells. Then I could gross out the lady at the counter.

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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2004|08:50 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Mood |blahblah]

I am resurrected!

I don't know, I missed being razi_esque, and I like this journal. Holla to my babies.
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(no subject) [Feb. 20th, 2004|08:01 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
something interesting about my therapist. she said the last thing she wanted me to tell her for today was one important thing that she could remember me by. i asked her what she would say to me and she told me that out of all of her patients i'm the only one that has asked her.
tell somebody anything i want. she won't tell anybody else, except for "privilege". i'm going to like therapy.
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(no subject) [Feb. 18th, 2004|09:19 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
Shitty, shitty shitty parents being retards. And I'm just as stupid for not doing anything about it.
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your nightly gothic fucking poetry [Feb. 18th, 2004|08:36 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Music |Evanescence - Tourniquet]

I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more.
(So much more)
I lay dying,
And I'm pouring
crimson regret, and betrayal.


I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?


My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

Do you remember me;
Lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?


My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

(Return to me salvation)
(I want to DIE!)

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.


My wounds cry for the grave.
My soul cries for deliverance.
Will I be denied?
Christ! Tourniquet! My suicide.


(Return to us salvation)
(Return to us salvation...)
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(no subject) [Feb. 18th, 2004|07:38 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Mood |dflghdlkfjgdfgdfg]
[Current Music |DAD watching TV while it makes NOISESSSSSSS]

I'm worthless!!
I run away from my problems! Why do I run away from my problems?!?! You deserve to suffer, Jackie! Fucker fucker cufkcuekur

I really want to kill myself... He wouldn't give me his pills oh god ohgdogdsdh
Ggggg >_o

I want to die! Run, Jackie! Run!!
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I have problems [Feb. 18th, 2004|03:08 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]
[Current Music |zombie zombie zombie]

I wish I knew who the real friends are.

Today I was convinced that everybody but a select few were against me. I tried to convince one of my friends to give me his bottle of sleeping pills, but he wouldn't even let me see them until I told him what was wrong, and I didn't tell him. I decided he was also an enemy. Then I threw myself at walls and screamed and babbled.

I need meds. Sweet luscious hot import azn meds.
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(no subject) [Feb. 17th, 2004|03:47 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Music |Evanescence - Even in Death]

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone.
I see your shadow so I know,
That they're all wrong.
Moonlighht on the soft brown earth,
It leads me to where you lay.
They took you away from me,
But now I'm taking you home.

I will stay forever here with you, my love.
The softly spoken words you gave me.
Even in death our love goes on.

Some say I'm crazy for my love, ooh my love.
But no bonds can hold me,
From your side, ooh my love.
They don't know you can't leave me.
They don't hear you singing to me.

I will stay forever here with you, my love.
The softly spoken words you gave me.
Even in death our love goes on.
And I can't love you, anymore than I do

I will stay forever here with you, my love.
The softly spoken words you gave me.
Even in death our love goes on.
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(no subject) [Feb. 17th, 2004|03:30 pm]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Mood |nervousnervous]
[Current Music |brother and his girlfriend flirting]




A friend in need will be out of your way soon.


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That worries me.

I never knew how similar some of my friends' lives are to mine. I've been suicidal for who knows how long, but what would do for them? I want them to survive and thrive, but not myself, and that doesn't work. I guess this is my duty.
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"The Aberdeen Song" or "Biography of Chris, Jackie and Their Friends" [Feb. 15th, 2004|11:00 am]
aberdeen redneck hick
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright]

When we were young the future was so bright
The old neighbourhood was so alive
And every kid on the whole damn street
Was gonna make it big and not be beat

Now the neighbourhood's cracked and torn
The kids are grown up but their lives are worn
How can one little street
Swallow so many lives

Chances thrown
Nothing's free
Longing for
what used to be
Still it's hard
Hard to see
Fragile lives
shattered dreams

jenny had a chance, well she really did
Instead she dropped out and had a couple of kids
Mark still lives at home cause he's got no job
He just plays guitar and smokes a lot of pot

Jay committed suicide
Brandon od'd and died
What the hell is going on
The cruellest dream, reality

(2X)
Chances thrown
Nothing's free
Longing for
what used to be
Still it's hard
Hard to see
Fragile lives
Shattered dreams
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